Living the Fourth every day

I almost forgot to do this. My dad made me angry today because last night my parents and I discussed something I knew I would have to help with that I dislike, and we said it would be in 2 weeks. Ok, I hate it, but at least I have 2 weeks notice. Today my dad said that we need to do it tomorrow because he made a mistake. I am trying to keep this brief, but it made me angry, and I rushed to fix something and it ended up breaking more. I hate getting no notification for things. 

I cant really think of anything for today. Whenever I see a disaster like the tornadoes today I think about things like how I use to want to be a fireman. Even though that is not my choice now I still want to be available to help save people should something happen around me. What I mean is I want to , at some point soon, get CPR training. I also want to be available as a volunteer in the future if there is a local emergency. I think when I have a place that I will live I will contact the local ire department and ask if there is somewhere I can sign up to be called if there is extra assistance needed for something, like rescuing people. What I was thinking today is if something like the tornadoes happened here I would hope I had access to my tools so that I could help take apart things and possibly get to people. 

Something I think about when there is a disaster is that I have a desire to help others. Thats something I like about myself.

I am very tired. Last night I went to sleep at 6:30 this morning. I woke up just before noon, so I got almost no sleep .I was busy cleaning basically. 

I will talk briefly today about how much I love my dog. Animals are amazing. I love animals more than humans much of the time. It sucks that my dog has so many health problems because I hat to see him in pain. Animals are wonderful. I feel so close and connected to my dog much of the time. I just love dogs so much. Maybe because they are there for you and will listen and try to make you feel better. I dont know, but I know I have a wonderful dog. 

I am tired, but I am also busy cleaning, so no real post for today. I did not really reflect anyway. 

I just finished watching Inuyasha:Final Act for the third time, but that was the first time I saw it in English, rather than just with English subs. I did some other stuff today, like run with my sister and her boyfriend then go to my other sisters birthday party, but my point for today is from Inuyasha and really any media.

I have mentioned before that spoilers do not bother me. The reason, I figure, goes back to the old saying that its not the destination its the journey. To me a lot of media has somewhat obvious endings. In Inuyasha you do not actually expect Naraku to win, no matter how close everyone gets to death. It is rare that a story will actually carry out the evil winning. What I enjoy so much about Inuasha is seeing them overcoming the struggle. Their evolution in character is so much more important than the end of the story because if it were not for the character development and for the struggles then the end would be pointless. The story would have little substance and be ultimately meaningless. I think thats why I dont mind spoilers. As long as I see how they overcome their struggles to get to the end, that is what is important to me. 

I just finished rewatching Inuyasha and I am about to rewatch Inuyasha: Final Act, but for the first time in English. I have only seen it in Japanese with English subs. 

Somehow I dont really have a point of reflection for today. I am too distracted with Inuyasha. Distractions occure quite frequently, which is part of the problem I encounter with trying to do this blog the way I think is correct. 

So good night. 

I was wondering today how a young child perceives someones death. How do you tell them someone they know has died or is dying. I say this because someone my niece knows (but I dont) is not going to live much longer. How will she perceive that he has died? How will they tell her about his death? Apparently she sees him every week, so I am sure she will notice if she stops seeing him. I feel sorry and sad for both her and the person who is so close to death. I hope he dies without much pain if he has any. I hope he doesn’t have any, but since they realize how close he is, it would seem that he is in some pain. 

just now they got a Chinese kid on to help them deal with a dragon. Not quite racism, but kind of funny.

I had something to day today, but as is often the case I forgot due to other things coming up. I am babysitting again tomorrow. 

I will agree that the idea that my loneliness is due to a biological clock basically is defiantly a possibility. I kind of thought that might be the case, but I am not sure. I might check my posts to see if there is a pattern of this. 

I am still watching a lot of Inuyasha, but I spent most of today with one of my friends. We played Frisbee and some video games. It was a fun day. I was also reminded that part of what I think my job is as a friend is to offer someone for people to talk to.  My job is to take care of my friends. 

I am trying to figure out something, what is it that sets off my loneliness or longing for someone? I am not sure. I have not seen any patterns for that, but I again have some feeling that I should be with someone. I desire being with my love, whoever my future wife may be.